As I mentioned in yesterday's post, I'm sure that the pain I am feeling is only going to get worse - and it has.
However, here is why I am overjoyed at that fact:
The fact that I can feel pain in my lower body in and of itself is a good thing. No, it's a great thing! Any feeling, good or bad, is feeling. That means the nerves are at least working, which is just what I need to happen. The fact that the pain is getting worse only means I am getting more feeling back. Even if they hurt, feeling my legs more could never be a bad thing. It is positive progression, and that's the main goal.
I never thought I'd be overjoyed at the idea of feeling more pain, but it's the feeling that has me giddy, period.
I can remember when I would have given anything to just be able to wiggle my toes, and now I am walking every single day, and feeling more and more every day. Who'd a thunk?
I don't often cry. In fact, I could almost say I never cry if people and animals in my life didn't die. Today, however, I broke down crying when I realized how far I've come in such a short period of time. Tears of joy, of course.
It's all just so overwhelming, and so unreal, sometimes I have to pinch myself and make sure it's not all just a dream.
Step count today: 549
Steps I'm ahead: 4,694
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